Leave It

I can’t understand why you just can’t let it go
What happened was so long ago
I made a mistake to let you into my heart
You kept making dates but never showed up
You kept saying you wanted to hang out
But never turned up
Left me in an unfamiliar place to make other plans
While you were with some other person.
So why, now, do you think that I care
What you feel or what you have to say?
Don’t tell me you have feelings but
You’re scared to tell me;
If you cannot be forthright, then keep your mouth shut
Keep shut also the door you walked away from
What you cannot say out of fear
Is of little consequence to me now,
So save your breath and walk away
‘Cause I absolutely do not care.

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Perpetually Passing

Within the boundaries of social construct, I cannot say that we can ever be

Your life is so different and distant from mine, and that, too, by your own design

Many happenstance moments, countless might-have-been thoughts

These all seem pointless in the wake of realization

We both know that it is not fated

Your journey and mine never intertwine long enough

And in the brief moments when they do,

We are never on the same page.

I never know where I stand; I don’t know that you care where you stand

One moment you’re there in a tangible way, next moment–poof!

You vanish along your way, as if nothing between us mattered

As though you’re indifferent, unmoved by our exchange

But we both know that the moments have to cease to matter

We both know that there is nothing beyond the moment to sustain it.

The moment is just that—a brief changing thing that ends as the eyes flutter,

Never to return and always overtaken by hours that do linger

The time spent with those who really do matter,

Sparing a nanosecond every now and then to consider that moment

The one that we shared.

 

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A thought occurred.

When you’re soaring, shining brightly on your own, they want to possess you, have you as their own, but when you’re struggling in moments of insecurity, feeling doomed and can’t see beyond your failures and short comings, they run. Where’s the bravness and support that was once promised? Was it only reserved for moments of happiness? If your care and concern is only lasting so long as your mate never wavers, then are you really in love or is it just a “phase that you’re going through,” and you’re so out of touch with your mind and desires that you can’t simply admit you never wanted anything really lasting? 

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Final Goodbye

I think of you and everything that we’ll never again get to do

No more tearing up dance floors, no more singing in the rain, no dancing down the avenues of life.

I’d always pictured you dancing at my wedding, always saw you playing with my children. I let our friendship suffer all these years, thinking that I’d have more time.

But time’s all spent, and you’re no more. I can’t see you ever again, can’t hold you, can’t introduce new people to you. Your loyalty, your honesty, your charisma, these all attracted good people to you. After losing touch with you, I was comforted that you’d made new friends. I was happy to see you being successful, so happy to see your happiness. 

I trusted that we’d someday reconnect, trusted that I’d get to say my apologies. And now, I only hope that I did still matter to you, that though we were not on good terms, you still thought of me. I’ll never get to make up with you, and never get to be your best friend again, but I hope you knew I loved you. You were like a loving older brother who I always wanted near. I pray that your family and all who held you dear find comfort in the love you left with them and warmth in the wonderful memories you all shared. 

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Something…

We set forth with hopeful eyes, passionate heart, and open mind. We came back defeated. Hope crushed. Passion gone. Mind’s still open but not as free. Empty, empty–nothing anywhere. Where to turn. What to do. Is courage going to see me through? I feel abandoned even though they’re still here.

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Content Remembrance

Woke up with you in mind,
As rain drops play music
On the windows here,
Such soothing salve to broken heart;
A comforting sentiment takes me,
As if you’re here again
Like that night you came
With gentle kisses and warm embrace–
Half way round the world,
And now you’re near, but we’re apart
Now you’re back, but can’t be here
So thoughts of laughs and romantic gaze
Fill my heart with contented grace.

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It’s Over

cannot trust your word anymore

I cannot take more lies

I feel as though I’m crazy

But my instincts never lie

I know there’s things you’ve hidden

I know you’re not being 100

Every rule you have there’s an exception

Conveniently meant for one person

Your exception betrays your heart

And that’s the reason we should part.

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